My Life’s Joys & Pains

Some people come into your life so calm and so sweet jus grinning teeth Never knew there was a tsunami behind you coming to destroy everyone you greet Silently and loudly ripping down my street turning our whole world upside down and not even being discreet Eventually seeing you can't even Hustle hard to make ends meet Left a mark on my heart and throwing fire sharp darts, you don't care who’s in the way but still taking shots Just being sorry afterwards don't cut it when we all still cleaning up from your chaotic start Nah you never was really smart, just made me dumber wishing I'd never gave you that number Wished I Never pulled up to your mark or never even ever parked Forgetting that everyone often looks good in the dark It's when the light came on that I shoulda disallowed you to leave your mark on my heart Something's just can't be avoided, can't believe I let some fuck boi make my life distorted But OK baby!  Oh you love me! But then ...

I know why the caged bird sings Sings within me  sings in falsetto  sings of sadness wrapped in deceit  songs of loss looking to retreat I see arms stretched out so close But I still can't reach Only I can free me I'm mute yet hear them singing Alone but not weak The only ones who heard my heart from inside Now beats outside of me Only my Happy songs they heard Yet their vision isn't blind So I hav to be free  free to fly free to soar higher  free to live off volcanoes My soul is burning, subtle coughs  free to love soft  free from covered ash and soote Free from words tha cut arteries Need to be recharged But my car has dead battery too Free to try Free to cry Thank you for my freedoms The lava formed strong rock My soles are black yet sturdy Face masked with pretty Shedding what's underneath Though my oily skin holds on tight Not letting the shedding skin to fall off Cancerous ball rolling on platelets What potion w...